Happy First Fathers Day to the most wonderful husband and daddy ever

Yesterday was a very busy day I spent the day in the NICU attempted to breastfeed Chace but he wasn't waking up he practiced well but did not take anything in! Jaxon however is doing better and better each time. Chace oxygen still at 30% and he still desats occasionally it seems that it is more when he is sleeping and right after he eats. The one nurse thinks he may have reflux. They are getting so big already. They weighed the boys over night and Jaxon is at 4 lbs 3oz and Chace is at 3lbs 12oz so he is just now at the weight Jaxon was when he was born. At least they are finally growing, eating and pooping......ALOT!!! I just can't wait for Chace to get bigger and stronger. I had a major meltdown in the NICU today and I think my stress affected Chace while I was holding him because his respirations were so high. I have been very strong through this whole thing but today just broke my heart Chace was having such difficulty breathing and it's so hard to see your one child advancing and the other is still advancing but so slowly and seeing him workk to breathe like that broke my heart and I cried, and cried, and cried some more because there is nothing I can do for him. He does seem to do better when he is skin to skin with one of us though so we are going to do that as much as we can.

Chace Michael

Daddy and Jaxon

Daddy with his boys

Chace

Jaxon

Today we visited from 10:30 to 3:30 and will go back up at about 8:00 tonight. The boys did well Jaxon took 30 ml by breast and he also took 50ml by bottle twice, the nurse called him a little piggy :) Chace also did really well this morning he took 32ml by bottle which is alot for him. Both boys were dressed this morning and is was so cute to see them in clothes. They moved Jaxon to an open crib today right before we left this afternoon, the Dr said if he can maintain his weight for at least 48hours and continues to eat and gain weight he will be going home, she said he will most likely go home before Chace which I already knew :( its hard to be excited to take your child home when the other has to stay there and then he will be all by himself and it will be so much more difficult to be up at hospital when I have on ethat I will soley be caring for no help from nurses with Jaxon anymore. But we will figure something out. I just hope Chace kicks it into high gear and comes home shortly after Jaxon, I suspect 2 more weeks at least for Chace but Im thinking Jaxon will be home before this week is over. Here are some pictures we took in the last 2 days. Will update more tomorrow.